All is well.
All is not well because I had the CVS exam and discovered that I have a perfect child. In fact I did not have the exam at all. I decided against it when I learned that there was even a greater risk of miscarriage than with a regular amniocentesis and that this doctor would be going in through the cervix (eeks – crossing my legs here). But the clincher for me was learning from my doctor that the 22nd week ultrasound will show within a 90% certainty whether or not there is a problem, so I should be able to prepare myself in plenty of time without any invasion or further risk to my child.
So all is well simply because I am at peace with the fact (encouraged by my husband) that this child was perfectly chosen for our family, chromosomal makeup and all.
It helps that the nausea seems to have abated significantly. I still eat more in order to avoid feeling sick than for pleasure but I’m not spending every second of every day wondering when I’m going to get sick next.
And I’m kind of in the holiday spirit, I must say.
After years of thinking about it, I finally caved in and ordered some Christmas DVDs and books from Amazon, knowing that my “Frenchish” children are not going to learn about them any other way. It’s not like the shows are going to appear on tv or anything. So I ordered the book “Twas the Night Before Christmas,” and the DVDs Rudolph, Charlie Brown’s Christmas and The Grinch. I decided against Frosty and couldn’t remember whether there was anything else from my childhood that I was missing.
Now that our fireplace has been officially cleared for use, we just need to wait for the package to arrive before we curl up in front of the fire and read/watch these Christmas delights as a family.
We had promised the children that the first fire would be today, but our fireplace is unbelievably small. I don’t know if you can see it from this picture.
So none of the iron grills to hold the wood that they sell these days fit inside the fireplace. This, and the fact that my husband actually has to plaster the inside of the chimney because it hasn’t been used in at least 40 years, if not more, are indicative of possible delays (to the loud protests of Young Knight). But we don’t want a smoky living room.
My ever-resourceful husband has found some old clay tiles outdoors that he will use for a makeshift grill until we find an antique one; and once he’s done plastering we will finally feel like a good and proper household with a working chimney.
All is well because we haven’t heard hide or hair of that mouse in awhile. I think he died. And although I feel pity for the small creature that got trapped inside our house and slowly had each food exit closed off to it through our intimidation techniques, I am relieved to be able to read, “Not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse” with assurance.
In other news on the home-front, Young Knight pulled the rest of the carrots out of the earth today, just before a hail storm hit. The carrots were mainly runts with many of them half-gnawed off by subterranean beasts, but I made a ginger carrot soup that we will be eating for dinner tonight. There may or may not be heavy cream and baguettes involved in this meal.
Young Lady is currently sitting on the couch next to a very tired Petit Prince and reading to him from a 2nd grade reader about princesses. It’s in English (one point for mommy).
On Thursday I took Petit Prince to the doctor because he wasn’t well, and we realized we hadn’t done the 3-yr cognitive, vision and auditory tests. So the doctor performed them on the spot.
His vision is fine and he just barely passes the cognitive tests for his age. (The doctor said we need to be on his case and work with him constantly on language, and not slack off because he is, for the moment, the youngest. I asked her until when we needed to do this and she responded, “until his majorité,” with a grin. In other words, until he’s out of the house).
Then we tested his hearing with one of those machines that you insert into his ear. When it makes a sound you’re supposed to see a bell-like graph on the machine showing that his ear is registering what it hears. Except that with him the graph was completely flat. So it looks like our Prince has a hearing problem, which I find more curious than worrying. It might explain why his speech is so delayed and he cannot yet put together a complete sentence while his cousin who is a month and a half younger is already quoting Baudelaire. So we have an appointment after Christmas with a specialist to see what the next step is.
Finally and finally in my super newsy post, our new vacuum cleaner arrived after about 2 weeks of our old one breaking. We had reached a new low in slovenliness and I told Sir it had become too much for me to handle alone. So we have begun to clean everything together as a family. Sir is on vacation for 2 weeks, starting now, and we’d like to begin with some order in our emotionally and physically chaotic existence.
So all is well. Not because it’s perfect, but because it’s life.
julie gardner says
I must tell you that every time I read your words, a peace settles over me. Like a blanket. Or a hug.
A sense of rightness.
You and your family are so very special.
And I’m wishing you all a most beautiful Christmas.
With love ~
ladyjennie says
Julie, thank you for this warm, blankety hug of a comment. 🙂
Alison@Mama Wants This says
I’m so glad to read this post. I’ve been thinking about you and your little one.
Have a safe, warm, happy holiday season (mouse-free and all).
Tracie says
Life (and a sense of peace in the midst of it) is a good thing.
You picked my favorite kids Christmas movies. Frosty isn’t as good as the others.
Merry Christmas to you, your husband, and all your little ones.
angela says
Merry Christmas to you and your family 🙂 I hope that you enjoy the magic of your Amazon gifts. I’ve been thinking about you & the babe (but not the mouse.)
Melanie says
Thanks for the update on you and the family. I love catching up through your posts which are so enjoyable to read because you have such a gift with words. It’s too bad we are so far apart but posts like these make me feel like we are close.
Sending a big hug to you and your family from us Bates.
Stephanie says
I am so happy you are feeling at peace. This is how you can be sure that you made the best choice about the test. I hope your children enjoy your favourite childhood stories! Have a joyful holiday 🙂
Ameena says
I really admire your calmness in the face of so much! So, so much. I need a lesson or two on how to handle the things life throws at you…
I’m hoping your little one’s hearing checks out okay. And hope the nauseousness is 100% gone soon.
Jackie Cangro says
Wishing you peace and joy for the holiday. I hope the kids get their fill of all the American Christmas classics. 🙂
SassyModernMom says
…and now I feel good and caught up. It sounds as if that fire place is going to be a lot of work, but as someone who adores her wood burning fire place I think it is well worth it!
Glad you are starting to feel better! Your Christmas is going to be wonderful:)
Alexandra says
I feel like I’m sitting next to a warm fire, with a good friend.
You are so magical that way.
Life is life: here we have incredible news.
My nephew’s final scan shows no traces of cancer, after completing his last chemotherapy treatment.
So, we had a small party this afternoon, with all his favorite foods.
It was a wonderful Sunday.
ladyjennie says
Thank you dear friend. I prayed for your nephew – so glad to get this good news!!
Jessica says
Feeling the warmth of your fireplace through your words. So glad that you are feeling full of peace because truly, no matter what is happening, if we can find peace in it then we are doing okay.
ladyjennie says
Thanks for stopping by Jessica. I’m just coming out of my 1st trimester funk (finally) and will come visit soon.
Jackie says
Such a small fire place! I hope that your movies arrive soon and that you and your family will be able to enjoy them in front of a warm fire. I’m sure that the kids will love them!
Galit Breen says
Happy almost cozy day complete with a (small) fire and new(ish) traditions.
(Also? I adore your heart. That is all.)
xo
Carole says
So glad to hear the nausea is abating, finally. Life is so much better when you’re not feeling sick constantly–no wonder you’re in the Christmas spirit.
A Charlie Brown Christmas is good too. 🙂
tracy@sellabitmum says
All is well and it’s life. Love this calm. Thinking about you. xo
Kayla says
I think part of peace is knowing that no matter what all you have to do is keep moving forward. Which isn’t that hard because it is the only place to go right?
Life will never be perfect because perfect will never be a state of being. The way you continue to look on your life however will make it perfect.
You have a talent with words so happy to have ran across your blog.
Marinka says
This is lovely. All is well, indeed. Best wishes to you and your family.
Glamamom says
Your photography is just gorgeous.
Good luck with you son. An action plan is everything.
Glad to read you’re feeling a little better.
xx
Amber says
How boring would a perfect life be? I’m glad everything is at peace in your world. Merry Christmas!